triggered desires

I want a baby. I really, really want a baby!! I've been wanting one for a while now. I start having withdrawals when mine start hitting around 2 and a half or 3. You'd think that after 5, the oldest of which is 19, I would be done. And I am done...I just really wish I could have another. It's nothing I think about on a daily basis or anything but when I see someone with a baby it makes me miss those days and think about what joy it is to hold a sweet little baby in your arms. Then there's those days when I think...only 15 more years and we're done!! But my Sister in Law announced last week that she is expecting and that triggered my desires. Now I keep thinking about how lucky she is to have that sweet little something to hold, to love, to kiss and to make her feel loved unconditionally....like only a baby can.